today is my birthday...
last night,i was really touched with my bunch of frens..they are so sweet ...
when i saw them inside my room,i was like..wow..and tears start to fall...i can feel my heart bumping and i was really happy..
so happy that i duno wat to say..
in tat moment,i forgot all my sadness and bad memories...
thanks ya..frens..
except thank u,i duno wat should i say.....
bc u all really mean a lot to me..
a lot.....

shirley is back once again..
so happy and relieved after talking to my mom..
i feel so fortunate to have all my friends who never give up on me..
i love u all..
muaks..

love is a game.i lose in this game and i duno how much time i need to heal but now i am really suffering.sleepless nights make me feel like hell and i cant imagine wat will i do if things continue to happen in this way.i keep on telling to myself tat life goes on,but it doesnt help much.Tears are like curse and dreams are like nightmare.this is the second time i fell so badly and for me,it is really hard...

if only i could turn back time,but i know it is impossible.going to college with the eyes swollen..i really look ugly and i realy dun feel like going..my birthday is coming and for the first time of my life,i hate my birthday..i dun wan it to come..if can,tat day i wan to hide myself in a world tat nobody can find me...

i feel sorry for my friends.all i offer is trouble..they dun deserve tat,but i am really grateful to have them by my side and without them,i really will break down..

This hour, this minute, this second..i am really confused..things start to be complicated...
i dont know if i can move on...from i was first in love,till now..i always get stucked in the middle of no way..i myself cant figure out why things always get to be like that..i dunno..i really duno..
and i feel like going back to the start point...Again,i am lost..
i hate myself...